• It’s spring, finally… I think?

    I think this is about the latest spring we’ve had yet.
    Although I do recall previous June’s being ‘not-so-lovingly’ called “June-uary” around here.

    It seems it’s been crazy weather EVERY WHERE this spring though. So many places hit so hard.

    With a couple of nice days here, it was time to get planting! Hubby, four of the kids and I, hit the local shop on Sunday to pick up shingles for the roof of our new porch, and some flowers.

    We took a look at the ‘ready-made’ pots and hanging baskets, took one look at the prices, and decided to d-i-y (do it yourself). We d-i-y quite a bit around here! We like it and it saves a ton of money! Ready made is always so much more expensive.

    We picked out enough flowering plants for 4 hanging baskets, and 2 large pots. When we divided what we paid, it was the same price per each, as it would have been for the cheapest baskets they had ready made, BUT, those had cheap flowers in them and only one type of flower per basket.

    We didn’t want the cheap ones, we wanted the pretty ones with LOTS of color and variety! And that’s what we’ve got now!

    I even splurged on some Calla Lily’s, one of my favorites! I’ve never bought Calla Lilly’s for myself before, they were always too expensive, but these smaller ones were very pretty, and the price was alright since I just bought two. One for each larger pot for the bottom of our deck steps.

    I can’t wait to watch them grow!

    This basket doesn’t look like a whole not now, but I expect within a few weeks with some sun and a little rain, we’ll be seeing some overflowing going on!

    For mother’s day, my son had taken me shopping for some plants. I finally found something that thrives in our dark flower bed next to the house.

    Hostas! I don’t know why I didn’t think of them before. I had hostas on our previous city lot, and they always did great in the shade. I guess I was always too busy thinking ‘flowers’ to even think of simple greenery. So glad I have something pretty in there now. I have two, but I think I need one more. They aren’t cheap though!

    Remember I mentioned that I have no garden, and how silly that seems on a five acre hobby farm?

    Well, I now have TWO gardens. Hee hee. They are small, but I think they are awesome anyways. To put a garden in here, we’d need to build a fence, a very high fence. We have a lot of deer, and rabbits. Because we’ve had our home up for sale, we just couldn’t see putting the money into a large garden area if we were just going to be moving anyways. However, 4 summers later, and still no garden, and still no sale, I wanted at least SOMETHING this year.

    In the city, I had a big garden. Isn’t that funny?

    So we’ve been discussing at least making some garden beds, but wood isn’t cheap either, if you want to do it right!

    When hubby was tearing down the back step, he turned the two side steps over, and what did he find? The steps were made like boxes! TWO boxes!

    How perfect! I know the lettuce is all a little cramped, but hey, you make do with what you’ve got and I’m not complaining!

    We put Sunflowers, two tomato plants and a pepper plant in the other box.

    I know it’s not much, but at least we’ll have home grown salads this summer!

  • Having hope- the heart of one woman

    Over the past few weeks several of you have emailed in regards to my blog, thanking me for the willingness to share, openly, about our ‘real’ daily lives here on the homestead, and more.

    Some have also said thank you  for sharing our ups and downs, with a good attitude.

    One of you shared in an email the other day,
    “I just appreciate your happiness that comes across online when I read about your biz and such.”

    I honestly don’t feel like I have a good attitude much of the time!

    Every day I struggle to keep my attitude in check, to not become disheartened.

    Yet, I do continue to fight the negativity, the grumpiness.

    I remind myself instead of the blessings surrounding me.

    There are many. 

    Love is patient, love is kind,
    Love does not insist on its own way.
    Love bears all things, believes all things,
    Hopes all things, endures all things.
    Love never fails.
                                                      – I Corinthians 13:4-8

    Most of my life I’ve been a bit of a people pleaser. Trying my best to only say things that will cause others to be ‘happy’, and not upset or disappointed with me.

    As I grow older, I’ve become a little tired of trying to keep my life looking ‘pretty’ all the time, by sweeping the ‘garbage’ in my life, from my past, under the carpet.

    I’ve grown tired of trying to keep everyone happy, and trying to please others. It’s really not possible, and really, who says anyone has asked me to anyways?

    Because the reality of life is, you can sweep the garbage under the carpet all you want. You can TRY your best to hide it.

    But that garbage is still there. And, after a while, it really starts to stink.

    I don’t want things to stink around here! I want to open the windows and let the breezes in. I want to open the doors and sweep the garbage right out!

    And THAT is why I try to keep a good attitude, through it all.

    I don’t always succeed at the battle between good attitude vs. grumpies. My family can attest to that! But I do try. I guess that’s what shows through here on the blog.

    Because really… life, can be hard.

    Life is hard for pretty much everyone. I  don’t know ANY person who has it easy, in every aspect of their life.

    I remind myself of that, often.

    If I allow myself to wallow in self-pity, hopelessness, grumpiness, negativity, and the like, what good does that do me?

    More importantly, what good does it do for my family?

    In this life, I have two things that I feel I can have complete control over.

    Just two.

    • My faith.
    • My attitude.

    That’s it.

    During my life I have been through some difficult experiences, pain, ridicule, abuse, brokenness, rape (I’m humbling myself and sharing some of this for the first time), difficult years in our marriage, 2 miscarriages, and an episode that put me in the hospital for 4 days a few years ago in which the dr’s thought possibly a stroke, brain aneurysm or otherwise. We still don’t know what it was (it wasn’t any of the above, the neurologist says it was just a ‘funny’ migraine), but I’m still here, with my husband and my children. There was a lot of fear to fight through that one. That time, it wasn’t just about me, it was about dependents I could be leaving behind. It was about their possible pain, IF, the worst DID occur. For me, that was a whole other ball game from any pain before that involved just me.

    I’ve come through these experiences, yet, how I live NOW is not defined by these.

    I hope for nothing. I fear nothing. I am free.

                                             Nikos Kazantzakis

    WHO I am NOW has been shaped through those difficult times, but those times have not created me.

    Who I am is, a happy wife of almost 21 years, a very blessed mother to five wonderful children, a survivor, and proud of it, a successful business woman, and a woman with faith, even if it does feel very small at times

    Why do I share openly, candidly, here on my blog?

    I admit, sometimes I wonder.
    It can be unnerving, and very humbling, but I share so that maybe…

    …other’s might feel more free to share as well, or at least feel less alone in their daily struggles.

    “What life have you if you have not life together? There is no life that is not in community.”

    —T. S. Eliot

    Those of you who read here, are MY community. My community here is full of some family, some friends, MANY women who I’ve emailed with over the years, through business and other, and even some strangers. –I prefer to think of them as friends I simply haven’t had the chance to meet yet.

    At first when I began writing regularly I felt a little disappointed that because of my business, the fact that I sew women’s pads, this blog may never become what I hoped it could be, a place for others to connect to our family, and maybe even to one another.

    I realized that because of the intimate nature of the main products I create, some would never see this blog as more then a place for just ‘some’ women, but not a place for everyone.

    But then I realized just the other day that maybe that’s not something I should fight?

    Maybe instead of being disappointed about this I should embrace that reality, and be willing to share even MORE openly, about my life as a woman. To share without shame.

    Because, sadly, my life story is not unusual. My past is not unique.

    From the time I was much younger, I always felt that if ANY good could ever come from what I had been through, it would be worth it. If MY story would help ease the pain for even just ONE other woman/girl, then my pain had been worth it. It then has a purpose. It is no longer senseless.

    And so I share my life.

    Love comes to those who still hope even though they’ve been dissapointed.
    To those who still beleive, even though they’ve been betrayed.
    To those who still love even though they’ve been hurt before.

  • Sunday Seven. A day to be thankful!

    I’ve got lots to be thankful for this week so finding seven things should be easy!

    First, I’m thankful for my husband. I witnessed him falling yesterday, with a ladder, and my heart just about leaped out of my skin!

    He was fine though, and for that, I’m also thankful. VERY thankful! I don’t know how someone falls like that and doesn’t end up with an injury. Even his shoe came off!

    I’m thankful today that Teagan slept through the night last night for the first time in 3 days. He was sick, from both ‘ends’, and I was up with him quite a few times each night taking him to the bathroom. That’s very unlike him. He’s really good about sleeping ALL night long and not whining until morning, even if we sleep in! Poor puppy. He’s all well now though and now he’s a whopping 2 pounds 9 ounces.

    I’m thankful again for my husband, and my son, because they work so hard to make sure we don’t have to spend thousands a year on heat.

    These logs all came off a building lot. Joshua received them for free for a day’s work from a local excavating company. Not bad! We’ve got 3 winter’s worth of wood now I believe.

    I’m thankful for helpful children. Helping Daddy.

    And helping one another. And having fun doing it. 😉

    I’m thankful for innocence, that my 11 and 13 year olds still know how to play.

    Once again this week, I’m thankful for my husband’s hard work. He’s rebuilding our back step.

    It’s going to look SO nice when it’s all done!
    This is what he was working on when he fell with the ladder!

    Lots to be thankful for this week, but every week really.

    *Sunday Seven. A day to be thankful!- What are YOU thankful for this week?
    If you’d like to play along, post seven things on  your blog then leave a link for all of us to come see! Or, simply leave your seven right here in the comments.

  • Dandelion = good eats! Silly Saturday.

    I’ve decided to swap things around. Instead of Silly Sunday, it will be Silly Saturday, and then Sunday with be Sunday Seven. 🙂

    This week we did something that seemed a little ‘silly’.

    We had dandelions for lunch! And surprisingly, they were really good!

    We had a bunch of dandelions growing because of all the rain, so before my husband was going to mow them all away I said we should search the net for some dandelion recipes and give it a try! It always seems a shame to waste that which can be of use.

    So I did a search and came upon this page: http://www.learningherbs.com/dandelion_recipes.html

    Dandelion Fritters!

    It actually sounded tasty, and easy! The girls were on board to at least give it a try!

    First we picked some dandelions, watching for spiders and other little critters.

    Put them all in a bowl.

    Then we laid them out on a white plate, so we could double, and triple check them for bugs.

    Hee hee.

    Grabbed an egg from our hens, some flour (we just used plain white flour), some oil (you can use coconut oil, but we went with vegetable, Shaylah’s request, she didn’t want a ‘nutty’ taste), and some milk. We use whole milk.

    Mixed it all together.

    Dipped the dandelions in the batter.

    And fried them up!

    They were actually starting to smell REALLY good!
    Elsa wasn’t sure what to think. Hee hee.

    It looks like FOOD. Not weeds!

    Hmmmm… not bad.

    And there you have, dandelion fritters!

    We tried them first with a bit of salt, with the head of the dandelion. Then we did the rest like tiny pancakes, pulling the petals from the dandelions and mixing them through the batter. We liked that best.

    We tried some with maple syrup, that was my favorite!

    The kids also tried them with mustard. They said it was good that way too. I don’t much like mustard.

    Our dandelions are all mowed away now, but I believe we may make these again if some more grow over the next few months.

    Yes, they were good enough to say we’d do it again!

  • Taking over the world… well… Homestead Emporium at least.

    Julia is determined to take over Homestead Emporium one day! The sooner, the better, as far as she is concerned!

    I keep trying and trying to slow her down, but she’s just having none of that! Yesterday, I finally told her, after her twin sister begged her one more time to PLEASE come and play with her, that she really should, just go and play!

    She finally relented.

    She says she much prefers to spend her time with adults, and working, then watching tv, going on the computer, or even sometimes, more then playing.

    I think she enjoys the feeling of accomplishment she gets from her work.

    I really can’t blame her. We’re all very different. Some prefer work, some prefer relaxing, others prefer play. Yet, we all need to learn how to balance it all out.

    Our son is the same way. He has ALWAYS loved following his Dad around from the time he could walk. If Graydon was mowing the lawn, Joshua was out there following every zig zag across the lawn with his own little toy mower.

    Eventually he grew up and swapped out the toys for the real thing. Now, at almost 18, he can’t keep up with the job offers from friends and neighbours. Some weeks he works 7 days a week. Others ‘only’ six, and only because he had to finally say “no” and take a day off!

    Gotta have SOME fun, but for some of us, work is part of the fun!

    After much practic, this week, Julia mastered the serger.

    She’s been practicing the facial mitts she cuts out. Her goal was to be able to do them entirely on her own, from choosing the fabrics, to cutting them, to now sewing them!

    This week, she passed into ‘professional’ sewing skills with these mitts, and they will be IN the shop!

    Today!

    All hand made, by Julia, from start to finish!

    She’s very proud. 

    I’m very proud.

    We both hope YOU will be very impressed, with her work and pleased with your new facial mitts when you receive them!

    Come check out her mitts, and our other new items today at 11am pst, 2pm est!

    http://hyenacart.com/HomesteadEmporium/

  • VERY excited about this week’s stocking! New products!

    I am VERY excited about the stocking this week! We’ve got NEW items!

    Or maybe I should say, a new spins on already loved items?

    In either case, I’ve been busy designing behind the scenes and finally had to share!

    First off, we have a new nursing pad design.

    ~Introducing the EnduraFit Nursing Pad!

    The EnduraFit allows YOU to customize your own personal fit!

    Simply overlap the two ends to the perfet FIT for YOU!

    The EnduraFit has been created with a cool wicking fabric layer, for against the skin. This is the same as we use in our EnduraPads.

    This fabric will keep you feeling cool, and dry, through the hot summer months and beyond!

    Pair this up with our new ‘large’ milk.stops and you’ve got awesome protection even for super soakers! For this stocking, we have two sets of EnduraFit Nursing Pads paired up with our new SUPER TRIM ‘large’ milk.stops! What a great combination!

    ~Next up, our new UltiMax Slim Pad!


    *these photos were all taken before snaps were added. 

    Many of you have asked me over the years for a pad as absorbent as the Ultimate and then the UltiMax, in a version that could be backed in PUL (poly laminated cotton fabric) for a trimmer, yet still highly absorbent, pad!

    Because of the super curves of the Ultimate and then the UltiMax, and the issues with the PUL not stretching well enough to really work with those curves and still conform to your body, I have now created a new design which will FINALLY allow for the best of both worlds!

    The UltiMax Slim.

    The pad shown in these photos not only has a SUPER trim PUL backing, but it also has a zorb boost as well as our usual heavy flow absorbency!

    This pad is SUPER absorbent, yet just take a look at how slim it is!

    Super absorbency, super slim, yet SUPER comfortable! Just what you need on those super heavy flow days when you need to be out and about and NEED that extra protection!

    And last, but not least, we are bringing back an ‘original’!

    The ‘original’ Comfort Contour Pad!

    When I first designed the original comfort contour pad, it was super trim, super slim, and super comfortable!

    However, the company we were purchasing from, who makes the windpro fleece, complete re-organized their way of dealing with small businesses (they were going to close their doors to small business all together, thank goodness they didn’t do that!) and we were no longer able to purchase certain fleeces we usually had. Namely, the shirt-weight fleece.

    This created a need for a slight re-design. We went from a two piece backing, to using the pad and tab wings out stretched to create a new pattern for our backing in a one piece. Rather then sewing the wings on separately, the backing and wings became one.

    The light weight to mid-weight fabrics were were getting in were no longer thin enough to create the Comfort Contour as I had originally designed, except when using PUL as the backing.

    Although the pad is essentially the same, there is a slight difference. When sewing the center and top onto the backing in the new way, the backing had to be made just a little larger so things would stay nice and even, and so the pad would have a better fit with the fleece backing done this way.

    However, I have always prefered the ‘original’ comfort contour pad over the new style.

    Why? Because I feel it makes for a better pad for those who prefer the comfort contour style. Those with a flow that ‘behaves’, a flow that is simply a regular flow, not too heavy, not gushy. For those who, when using disposable pads previously, preferred a pad with NO wings. One with as little bulk as absolutely possible.

    This is why our light comfort contour pad, and tiny liners, have always remained the same. Since they are not a ‘thick’ a pad, I never had issues with the backings using the light weight fleece.

    Over the last while, I have been able to bring in some more of the original super trim fabrics we began with, more of the shirt weight windpro, and thus I am now able to bring back the orginal, one and only, truly Comfort Contour Pad.

    Those who have some of the originals in their stash, will be pleased to hear it!

    We will still carry the newer Comfort Contour pads for those of you who prefer our slightly thicker windpro fleece backing, but for those of you who say GO SLIMMER, GO TRIMMER, you’ll love the ‘original’ comfort contour pad.

    This week we will be stocking these with trim waterproof fleece, and some with super trim PUL backing!

    If you have a regular flow, that likes to stay put, will behave for you, and remain where it belongs, these are just perfect for you!

    Or if you have a flow that begins heavy, but as your period goes on, it tapers down, these are also perfect for those days near the end when you no longer need a great big pad and you just want some contoured comfort instead!

    *More details to come about all the new items tonight as I list previews for Friday’s stocking.

  • Round about the homestead.

    I had my camera handy yesterday since I needed to snap some photos of custom orders.

    I figured I’d snap some ‘non-business’ photos as well!

    Yesterday my hubby brought all three of the younger girls with him to run errands and the older two were both at work, so I was all alone. Elsa was pretty excited because yesterday was her ‘pay day’ from helping her Daddy on a job! She’s feeling rich now! I’m proud of her for sticking with the job from start to finish! It took a whole week, and Graydon said she worked VERY well. Stuck with it, and never once complained! When you have a child with some special needs, the questions about how they will do in life as adults, never leaves the back of your mind. Every task she completes is a bonus. Every task she completes WELL, and HAPPILY, is a HUMONGOUS bonus!

    It also sets your mind just a little more at ease about that child’s future. She’s 13 now, and doesn’t have quite so many years left to prepare for adulthood. She seems to be doing well though. 🙂

    I posted photos of the ducks, when they were ducklings. Here they are hanging out with the hens yesterday.

    I’ll be glad when the rains stop. It’s great that everything is now nice and green, however the mud, for the animals, isn’t great at all.

    One of the Muscovy ducks is in the background, on the pool. We have two of those as well.

    Whoever says you can’t tame chickens… well… they’ve never met any of ours. As soon as the kids go in there and near one, it will sit right down and wait to be picked up.

    For lunch, since it was just me home, I made myself a nice big sandwich.

    Home grown left over chicken on whole wheat with sprouts and cranberry sauce.

    I swear one day, not only will the chicken be home grown but the bread will be home made, the sprouts will be my own and dare I say I’ll even tackle making my own cranberry sauce in the future!

    I have grown sprouts many times, but just can’t seem to keep up with it lately. They are SO easy! I should share a ‘how to’ some time soon for anyone who has never tried it.

    The bread making, I used to do that too. I’d stuff as many grains as possible into my homemade breads! My eldest sister taught me how many many years ago, when I was only at two children, or maybe it was right before or after number 3?

    I made our own bread for a couple of years after that but once #’s 4 & 5 came along… and then the business… well, I just need to figure out a way to either clone myself, or create more hours in a day, or the most plausible but probably the most ineffective, live on 4 hours of sleep. hee hee

    Then I’d really be rolling!

    How productive I’d be on 4 hours sleep? That, I’m not so sure about.

    After lunch it was time to pick up Alesia from work and time for me to get some more work done.

    Once hubby and the kids came home, Julia spent the rest of the evening in the studio working with me. She’s been learning how to serge! She started by serging my fabric ends before I wash fabrics that tend to fray, like flannels.

    Julia serging
    *photo from my phone taken another day.

    This week she’s been practicing on mitts and cotton balls. She actually did many mitts just as well as I could, and they will be put up in the shop on Friday! That means she did it ALL. From cutting, to serging! I’m so proud of her, but most of all, I love that she is proud of herself!

    These children just grow up way too fast! The days move by much too quickly!

  • Ducklings Spring 2010

    I just have to share some of these photos again of the ducklings from last spring!

    We all wish we could get some more this spring, but since our house is for sale, we felt it best to hold off on buying any more ducks, or chicks, this year.

    However, because we hate to constantly put EVERYTHING off because we “might” move soon, we are allowing Cocoa to keep some of her eggs right now.

    Remember Cocoa?

    I swear she’s the cutest duckling ever.

    Anywho, she’s all grown up now.

    We just have her and Shivers from the original four.

    Some may recall that 3 of the 4 ducklings were boys.

    Once they grew up, the three of them began fighting over Cocoa. So we had to re-home 2 of them.

    It’s too bad they grow up so fast!

    They are just too darn cute as babies!

    If Cocoa and Shivers are successful at raising a couple of babies, I’ll be sure to snap lots of photos.

    And I’ll be sure to share them here!

  • Silly Sunday- kid edition!

    As I was browsing some old photographs, I found these and it made me long for summer!

    We were visiting a nearby lake one day having a picnic lunch and swim.

    The kids got a little silly.

    SillyShaylah

    These are from a while ago, September 2007 actually. I guess that’s more then a ‘while’.

    SillyJulia

    Time flies much too quickly! Elsa’s grown a little since then. Just a tad.

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    The younger three were not the only ones being silly.

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    Shhh…. don’t tell Alesia and Joshua I posted an old photo of them having fun.

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    But it is silly Sunday afterall!

  • Saturday Six

    Saturday Six.

    Six things, each Saturday, that I am glad for. It’s good to ponder on those things we’re thankful for in our lives.

    Today I’m thankful for:

    The smell of freshly cut grass. It means the rain stopped long enough for it to be cut… finally.

    I’m thankful for the flowers blooming in my flower beds, as few as they may be. Each one is pretty anyways!

    The daffodils, even though they are now dying, because it only means warmer weather should be on it’s way!

    The business being busy. As much as I wish I had time to plant a great big garden, I know the blessing of the business is something to be VERY thankful for.

    For veggies. Even though I don’t have time to plant a big garden, I will MAKE time to plant a little one. Even in small planters. It WILL be done!

    And most of all, today I am thankful for Julia.

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    A couple of weeks ago I shared on facebook that she found a tick on her arm. I pulled it out and immediately researched things, especially Lyme disease.
    After a few of you shared how you never had symptoms of Lyme disease after a tick bite, but have Lyme disease now, my husband and I realized we would rather be safe then sorry and take her into see the doctor rather then play the ‘wait and see’ game.

    The doctor said it was VERY rare that she would end up with Lyme disease and that in his 17 years as a doctor here in our area, he had never had a single patient with it.

    That was good news, but we wanted to be safe anyways. Although we are VERY careful not to use meds when not needed, we felt this was different. The twins have never had antibiotics in their lives (maybe once as babes??), our kids just don’t get sick a whole lot and we can  usually treat things without intervention.  They might get a flu once a year, but it only slows them down for 24-48 hours and they are back to normal again. We are hardly EVER at the doctors. We take them in about every 3 years, just to say hello and have our doctor check all five of them over. Even then, our doctor keeps telling us we don’t even have to bother with that, but I like to anyways.

    All that to say, we’re not the type to rush our kids into the doctors for every little sniffle.

    This was different. Lyme disease is something that stays with you if you end up with it. Julia has WAY too much ambition, too many desires in life, all physical, to risk her being plagued with fatigue and flu like symptoms for years and years to come.

    The doctor agreed that it wouldn’t hurt to put her on an antibiotic. He also put my husband, who had two marks just like Julia’s on his arm, on antibiotics as well, since we were quite sure he had also been bitten. Much better to be safe, then sorry.

    So all was well, the tick bites went down. No rash, no redness, no symptoms.

    Then Thursday Julia wasn’t feeling real well. She’s such a trooper though. A tough little nut. Even though we had a ‘short notice’ showing and spent 3 hours cleaning, she never complained.
    I wondered about her not feeling well, but also knew the antibiotics can be hard on the stomach and figured we’d wait and see if that’s what it was.

    The next day she complained her neck was swollen and she felt worse. Then she got a fever. Her last pill was last night.

    She woke up this morning and she still had swollen glands, her eyes were feeling painful, her head hurt, she was still feeling hot, and she just felt overall not well.

    I did some more research and learned that these were all ‘possible’ symptoms of Lyme and that it should be treated more aggressively, with antibiotics for 14-30 days. Not just 10 days.

    Since it’s Saturday, we had to take her to the walk in clinic. Thankfully the doctor agreed that with her symptoms, we should continue the antibiotics. He put her on a stronger one, and made it an adult dose, for another 10 days.

    I sure hope she’s all clear after this! Eleven years of age is MUCH too young to worry about something like this following you the rest of your life.

    So today, I’m thankful for Julia. Thankful for the doctor as well, that he didn’t fight us on this, and listened to our concerns.

    Maybe it’s all coincidence. Maybe her fever has nothing to do with the tick bite. But having 7 in our home, and her be the only one sick? We’re not taking any chances!

    *Saturday Six- What are YOU thankful for today?
    If you’d like to play alone, post six things on  your blog then leave a link for all of us to come see!